NERVOUS !

biochem oral tadi. ala carry mark 5% je for final.
just feel unsatisfied with the oral session just now

the session went like :

me : assalammualaikum Doctor Wafa' .. hehe
Dr.Wafa' : aiwa nabilah...come in..im happy to see you !!
me : oke...
Dr Wafa ' : how are you??
me : urkk...nervous (my throat dried) i mean great....hehe
Dr Wafa' : ocay..relax..now Nabilah.what is a nucleotide ??
me : umm....chop Dr..i know this..oke consists of three things making up this nucleotide which are sugar,phosphate group..and......
Dr.Wafa' : purine??
me : yah ! and purine um it can also be a pyrimidine..
Dr.wafa : oke good.um give me the function of nucleotide ?
me : there are several fucntions..um are the monomeric units of nucleic acid,act also as a coenzyme,mediators cyclic-AMP,and as an intermediate..
Dr. Wafa ' : what is a replication fork??
me : .... ah..Dr i know this...um..parental strands seperating and new strands are formed..
Dr.Wafa ' : by using ??
me : oh DNA Helicase.

she ended there.Fuihh..
though.im still shaking.so cuak..coz dia tanya sikit.yang orang lain dalam bilik tu dia tanya banyakk..
but anyhow.,Thank God.

So how was it ??

my point of view :
xde persediaan, tak percaya pada diri, overthinking,
(yalah bace malam tu jugak kott..hehe)big stuff is totally because of being toooo nervous ..
tak tahu final nanti cuak mcm mne

alamak,
aku lupa pula aku ada janji ngan Lala and Afaf and AJK Jaulah lain untuk ke GAD coz Abg Nafis nak belanja.
hehehe.kena marah nnti dgn diorng ..ok gtg.

kick your nervous OUTT !!!

Never Can Say Goodbye.

'hey, baca blog kau nih ayu,aku ta tulis pun pasal keadaan aku kat Mesir ni kan?haha lupa pula.update jap lah.'
aku letak buku biochem ku di tepi meja belajar ku.(duh..bukan nak belajar da la nak kuiz oral -5% marks pula tu.so not cool)
'oh.um nnty if da siap download lagu Dealova masuk kan ye hehe. Bello aku dah nak tido nih.tido dulu lah..'
ya.like i wrote.NEVER CAN SAY GOODBYE.
its funny to ingat balik.my mom,dad,lisa,tasha,harry,milhan,jabbar.still remember their words to me before fly ke Egypt.

pesanan mak : belajar jangan main banyak sangat.try to focus.u know how bad u want it .
pesanan Abah : take care,jaga sembahyang,pray for all of us dunia akhirat and behave well

pesanan harry (my big bro ) : nak snow cap harry?? (aku : wut?serious??nakkk..)
nah....eyh..!~ bukan ke kau pakai tudung ke kat sana??haha ta payah bagi la macam tu..hahah (aku : WTH....)
pesanan jabbar (my lil bro) : kau balik aku tahu kau da kurus balik (aku : ye ye...nnty aku kurus -_ -" ..)

pesanan Milhan (my lil bro ) : oke lahh.doakan Milhan !!~ (aku : ye.baekkkk..study! kurang kan girlfrens tu.*NO WOMEN NO CRY lah weyh..) *i mean,buat age dia lah form 2.guess u guys know..siapalah lelaki tanpa wanita di sisi..yup.!

pesanan tasha (my lil sis) : ... ... .. ... (aku : kau ta nak pesan apa apa ke?? suka hatilahh.belajarlah rajin rajin)
pesanan lisa (my lil sis) : Kak Ila nak pergy mana?? (aku:oh nak pergi jauh nih.nnty jumpa Lisa masa Raya tahu .~) Lisa : oh Kak Ila nak pergy KL ke?? (aku : haish.budak nih ta tahu ke aku nak pergy egypt?? Kak Ila nak pergy negara orang arab lah.Jauh kan...) Lisa : oh.ingat kan pergy KL.

HAHAHA..masing masing dengan cara diorang sying goodbye.but im going to tell u guys.the most touching part was,Lisa's part..
as she knew i was about to go abroad N OF COURSE NOT KUALA LUMPUR, she quickly hugged me and started crying.and kept asking 'nape kak Ila nak pergy negara orang Arab??'. my tears started to fall.just cant answer even a simple question from a 5 years old girl.No answer.just tears.

Glanced at my watch and yeah it was about time.
its not a very nice part but i believe in finding a positive side in everything,so the way i see it is,if i didnt have to leave them then i probably ta rasa anything coz duhh mungkin KL is too near so i would might couldnt be bother to call or interact wth them at all.
And to make sure that my parents always cool in eveything i do (i mean EVERYTHING yang merisaukan diorang ) is always a part of my doa.hmm..thats why iwas offered the job of going to Egypt TO STUDY and not to UK AUS US or sumwhere else.haha yelah nnty leka !~
So it is clear in my mind.I know what i have to do next-i need to do what i was sent here.STUDY.n a bit of shopping?? XP

tasha and lisa

Hope with my newly open eyes and heart,i see what i've been missing all along..just wait im coming back!
ps : ta de pic.ta sempat lah nak ambil pic time sedih tu..

''I'll Be There ..'' - beloved Michael Jackson

BELLO