stress

kenapa aku stress nih??
bila fikir2..ta ada benda pun yang menyakit kan hati yang berlaku hari ni .oke jepp.wait aku kne list down perkara bahagia yang berlaku hari ini :

• bangun awal pagi.getting my oxygen ( fresh air came from my balcony)

• mandi,shampoo (lepas nih nak kena tukar shampoo)

• lapar : pergy bertapa kat rumah zekk.rezeki dapat makan free.terbaek lah (jumaat:no schedule masak.bukan malas :P)

• PeriL Histology presenters hantar semua presentation diorang ke aku before due date given (mmg kreatif lah masing2.how can i thank you guys??? a job well done !! haha :D)

• aku baca novel Twilight lagi: starting to accept kewujudan Bella dalam hidup Edward (selama ni aku mmg ta boleh accept.psycho lah kata kan.. :D)

• lapar lagi : balik2 rumah je,Huda (my housemate) masak Tom Yam.apa lagy makan sambil tengok Adamaya lah.

• berjaya habis kan tengok drama Adamaya.(hurm oke lah.biasa je.tipikal malay story)

• pergy rumah zekk lepas maghrib : nak pinjam baju sopan (baju kurung lah) untuk program PeriL esok.sekali Amalia kasi aku pinjam kasut sekali..terbaik betul. (bak kata orang tua2: dah kasi peher nak over )

begitulah.. baca2 balik,there are non penyebab stress. kan?
well..dalam tgh aku stress .akak SC aku macam tahu tahu je..tiba2 she sent this video.have a look.

ta faham sgt pun point lawak nya.tapi,buat aku tersenyum juga lah.
THANK YOU !! :)

ps : teringat dulu.somebody sent me a msg time2 stress SPM.
"Stressed is Desserts spelled backwards"

wish me luck tomorrow.PeriL Histology

kuih raya advance

in the middle of the delay examination..
well kami ( me and housemate ),got nothing much to do except for study je kerja nya. (heaven lah sangat kan delay delay nih.buat stress adalah)

jadi pagi semalam.
bangun tido,mandi,breakfast,and kami borak bout future (persatuan,jobs,exams,marriage,nak balik malaysia)all kind of stuff ..

saying about going back home,aku rasa ta payah balik lah ... naik college awal kot..dgn delayed exams lagy..tapi suka hati korang lah nak balik.biar aku seorang..alone baking the kuih raya.. T.T

bincang punya bincang.
so we decided nak buat kuih raya in advance..haha
malas nak tulis bnyak.(bnyak ta study lagy utk exam ni.dok buat benda ta berfaedah) so have a look lah at our output nih :

:THE FARABIES PRESENTING :

ya i know buruk.but what do you expect?? martha's???
.cukup bahagia lah dah siap.

ini pengaruh cerita Boys Over Flower lah nih..haha :D


ta ketinggalan yang hangus... ahaha :D


me : urgh chocolates,biscuits.calories calories....
Sir Isaac Newton : Gravity brings u down. not to worry much dear ...

Pengalaman Betul Hari Ini !

ya betul.
ikutkan hari ini punya status ym..
pengalaman apa yang aku kumpulkan pada hari ini? (skema betul ayat)

well..i woke up early this morning.switched on the lap top and start thinking.what am i suppose to do today??(sambil tu check whether aku ada dalam list orang terkaya di dunia atau tidak.tapi,tiada.sabar je lah.)

• oh kena masak breakfast
• basuh baju sikit
• nak study histology
• collect invitation letter dari Samhan
• jumpa mira rashidah and maryam pukul 10 pagy
• meet doctor Histology

oke set !
so i started with the cooking.nak masak apa pun ta tahu.lucky that there are still nasi left dalam periuk.so.potong bawang,chili,ikan bilis habis! so pakai serbuk ikan bilis je,black pepper,sedikit instant perencah nasi goreng .tadaaa siap ! nasi goreng ta cukup bahan

then next thing,laundry..paling senang.masuk kan baju2 semua,tekan on and evrything and let it be.
sambil tu buka lah buka histology (tapi ta boleh nak masuk.histo plain subject.agak bosan lah)

kes letter tu pula macam tade berita.(kata nak bagi .bila entah.)so i called atieq.asking about the letter.last last aku print sendiri dan mulakan kerja aku.balas email and everything .tiba2 mira buzz..almost 10 a.m.off lappy and out to gamaah..

while searching for the man (head dep of histo) ....
kelakar .i mean,bila kita naik atas dia dekat bawah,bila dia naik atas kita pula dekat bawah.tapi jumpa juga.n i passed the letter and explained a bit and stuff.the meeting went ocay.

went back home with super satisfaction...bila sampai rumah,terus terasa nak potong rambut.i dont know what i was thinking.jadi...aku call here and there tanya the nearest salon..
so we found out about Monalisa salon.. member tu cuma cakap the salon is near somewhere Apple ( a fast food kind of restaurant).kira gamble lah aku and my housemate (ayu) cari salon tu.nasib famous kott..(not us..the salon lah..).

so nak pendek kan cerita kami jumpa salon nya..aku masukk..happy gila.semangat pun juga.lama ta masuk salon. :p kami masuk and i asked :

me : hello.salam !
receptionist : :) (senyum je ta kata apa)
me : well..can you speak english??
receptionist : what do you want?? (act,he spoke in arabic lah )
me : ........ (aku ta tahu nak kata apa.haish kamus arab aku ta khatam lagy lah pakcik )
me : :) (time aku pula senyum..oke oke i need a clue or something!)

aku pun buat lah gaya sehebat mungkin.macam shin chan pun ada gak aku rasa.hehehe

nasib dia faham.
then i told them iwant a nice short kinda bob hair.(ta cakap pun,tapi bijak ta aku keluar kan gambar Katie Holmes) :P
tapi leceh lah juga nak potong rambut di egypt ni ( i dont know,maybe Tanta je kot )

i tell you what :

• i want a nice short haircut.tapi boleh diorang kata,buat apa nak potong kan dah ocay.lemah betullah.. (habis nak tunggu rambut sampai rosak,panjang ke kaki ke baru nak potong ?? pelikk)

• straighten rambut.bukannya apa aku saja je nak menggedik..tapi dia ta bagi.Alasan : rambut aku dah lurus lah apalah.(hai kalau kat msia amoi2 tu dah rebonding pun nak kasi pakai seterika baju lagi tahu)

• cara dia potong : perghh..mmg mencabar kulit kepala aku.kasar ..pengalaman betul !! Dia ikat rambut aku ala2 pony tail and then cut my hair just like that !! Oh my God!! aku mmg ta terkata apa.i cant felt my heart beating for a sec. huihh..nak nangis pun ada.tapi aku sabar je lagi."its ocay bello.nnty balik alter." i said to myself.

• another thing : boleh dia suruh aku pegang straightener dia."WHAT???". .terlepas lah juga mulut aku. i rolled my eyes and started to lose my temper.

• dah habis potong : aku tengok,ummm....oke lah juga.hair dresser aku tu siap ambil gamba aku lagy LOL :D .malu lah juga macam jadi tumpuan kejap..boleh diorang kata aku nampak macam HONEY??i was like,apa tuh??ta de perkataan lain ke??.well .. my point is diornag enjoy kot buat rambut aku,yelah....asyik buat rambut kerinting kembang je..tiba2 buat something new mesty lah happy..terasa jadi bahan experiment lah pula ..hehe

• the best part was i got L.E 5 off from the actual price. alahh...oke lah tu..ingat senang ke arab nak kasi kurang harga.hehe

selesai potong rambut.pergi cari bola basket pula.hehe.housemate pesan..seronok juga rumah dah ada bola.ta payah pinjam orang lain lagi :D


again ! balik dengan gembiranya . im happy enough.though sedikit pengalaman hari nih..i shared my new hair with my brother,harry..dia pun padan muka mak suruh dia potong rambut hahaha
he commented :

"macam budak budak !! " and he laughed somemore

"this one??better angle huh??kan kan? haha" i said.
"haha still !! macam budak tadika !!" he said
cheitt..ta membina betul

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tadaa

"haha u better tie your hair.let the hair grow faster !! "he commented lagi
"loh..what kind of theory is that lah harry??" i said

apa apa jelah..i dont care
tunggu jelah panjang.erkk theory tu boleh pakai ker??

p.s : sumpah terlupa about my laundry.ta sidai lagy baju nya.aduhai.seronok2 sampai lupa. :p


Every moment is an experience.Precious it !

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rude Egyptians.

oh God..
i think it was yesterday that i post something good/great about Egypt.
urghh..entahlah
ALLAH nak tunjuk kot yang not all egyptians are good. !!!

i really dont know how to express it.malas nak cerita.but ya.what i can say is.dont ever think of being TOO good to Egyptians..

bello.somethings happens for a reason (well trying to make it in a positive way)
pasti ada hikmah (bak kata senior di Tanta ni lah)

oke here are something that might be useful for other akhwat to caution about or some sort of like a protection :

• pasti kan anda berjalan lebih dari 4 orang (i mean 3 orang dah ta works.believe me! )

• Dont wear high heals (though if jalan dekat K.L boleh jadi one of the senjata.ini egypt bukan malaysia).

• pepper spray.perfume also will do (pgg !! jangan letak dalam beg.nnty lambat nak keluar kan)

• be away from the suspect

• jalan opposite lane from any suspect.and that suspect could be anyone! (well.muka angel pun ta boleh percaya)

• make eye contact (ni kira pandangan badi lah).dont smile (buat muka macam pemain rugby ALL BLACKS-garang)

• if you are holding books.it is better.more secure. (you know what i mean.if ta faham,ask me trough my ym i.d : helnarox_91@yahoo.com )

• get a hold to your self (protect yourself in anyway) dont panic! BE ALERT ALL THE TIME!

Put your trust in Allah and seek strength from Him

a place for me ?

aku rasa semua dah buat untuk hilang kan kebosanan ini .
okay lets see :

• laundry
• jemur comforter
• call parents
• kemas meja belajar (tapy macam ta kemas.byak sagt barang :D LOL)
• kemas dapur
• bayar broadband
• beli - belah
• souq
• cooking
• movies
• activate FB
• starting to appreciate Tanta*

haha wuts up with the last point there??*

okay.let me admit.mula-mula datang Tanta.seriously i was so shock ( i mean i will spend whole of my six years of life here??)GOD.plus to be frank i dont like seniors (fight is a normal thing when it comes with seniors-teringat kat Jasin dulu).seniors di Tanta sangat lah perihatin.

well.i guess im wrong..
living here is like a dream come true (to those people who wish to change.i do :D).
i still rememmber when i was having a daughter-father conversation
it was on our way to Danga Bay (Danga Bay-its in JB,you can see Singapore from there you know)

abah : nekad jelah pergy Mesir.you nak tunggu scholar sampai bila...its better if you go to Egypt than belajar di Malaysia.you know..

me : ya lahh..tapi ta nak berat kan abah and mak untuk pay for everything.i mean,though dah dpt scholar esok pun,takut masih minta duit dari abah and mak. being far away from family takut lagi banyak pakai duit..tak best lah.MARA offered,amik je lah..ta payah fikir fikir lagy.dah packing pun nak buat foundation tu kan.

abah : okay.think carefully.but i tell you what.i send you there so that u boleh open your views.overseas grads lain.ta macam malaysia punya grads.plus,it is easier if ambil medic terus.boleh cepat grad..think about it and dont feel burden..

me : ... (praying and hoping for the best)

and here i am.ALHAMDULILLAH.
actually,the environment,the people,the weather,the seniors i just love them all.

i learn a lot here.betullah senior di sini kata, "kalau korang duduk tanta,korang akan rasa ada sesuatu kat tanta nih." with a big smile(kak ain-4th year :D btw)
ha yaa...ada lagy satu yang aku memang ingat lah.."umm kalau biasanya akhwat Tanta nih akan jadi pilihan ikhwah..sebab nak kata akhwat product Tanta ni cukup dunia akhirat lah.." (siapa entah yang cakap kat aku.sumpah tak ingat)
haha tapi aku tak kut..masih banyak lah nak kena belajar oii...

sembahyang ku,mengaji ku,niat ku.bnyak yang aku kena upgrade.
Alhamdulillah dapat a place which i can start......

LET BYGONES BE BYGONES
Smile though your heart is aching - Charlie Chaplin.Smile

NERVOUS !

biochem oral tadi. ala carry mark 5% je for final.
just feel unsatisfied with the oral session just now

the session went like :

me : assalammualaikum Doctor Wafa' .. hehe
Dr.Wafa' : aiwa nabilah...come in..im happy to see you !!
me : oke...
Dr Wafa ' : how are you??
me : urkk...nervous (my throat dried) i mean great....hehe
Dr Wafa' : ocay..relax..now Nabilah.what is a nucleotide ??
me : umm....chop Dr..i know this..oke consists of three things making up this nucleotide which are sugar,phosphate group..and......
Dr.Wafa' : purine??
me : yah ! and purine um it can also be a pyrimidine..
Dr.wafa : oke good.um give me the function of nucleotide ?
me : there are several fucntions..um are the monomeric units of nucleic acid,act also as a coenzyme,mediators cyclic-AMP,and as an intermediate..
Dr. Wafa ' : what is a replication fork??
me : .... ah..Dr i know this...um..parental strands seperating and new strands are formed..
Dr.Wafa ' : by using ??
me : oh DNA Helicase.

she ended there.Fuihh..
though.im still shaking.so cuak..coz dia tanya sikit.yang orang lain dalam bilik tu dia tanya banyakk..
but anyhow.,Thank God.

So how was it ??

my point of view :
xde persediaan, tak percaya pada diri, overthinking,
(yalah bace malam tu jugak kott..hehe)big stuff is totally because of being toooo nervous ..
tak tahu final nanti cuak mcm mne

alamak,
aku lupa pula aku ada janji ngan Lala and Afaf and AJK Jaulah lain untuk ke GAD coz Abg Nafis nak belanja.
hehehe.kena marah nnti dgn diorng ..ok gtg.

kick your nervous OUTT !!!

Never Can Say Goodbye.

'hey, baca blog kau nih ayu,aku ta tulis pun pasal keadaan aku kat Mesir ni kan?haha lupa pula.update jap lah.'
aku letak buku biochem ku di tepi meja belajar ku.(duh..bukan nak belajar da la nak kuiz oral -5% marks pula tu.so not cool)
'oh.um nnty if da siap download lagu Dealova masuk kan ye hehe. Bello aku dah nak tido nih.tido dulu lah..'
ya.like i wrote.NEVER CAN SAY GOODBYE.
its funny to ingat balik.my mom,dad,lisa,tasha,harry,milhan,jabbar.still remember their words to me before fly ke Egypt.

pesanan mak : belajar jangan main banyak sangat.try to focus.u know how bad u want it .
pesanan Abah : take care,jaga sembahyang,pray for all of us dunia akhirat and behave well

pesanan harry (my big bro ) : nak snow cap harry?? (aku : wut?serious??nakkk..)
nah....eyh..!~ bukan ke kau pakai tudung ke kat sana??haha ta payah bagi la macam tu..hahah (aku : WTH....)
pesanan jabbar (my lil bro) : kau balik aku tahu kau da kurus balik (aku : ye ye...nnty aku kurus -_ -" ..)

pesanan Milhan (my lil bro ) : oke lahh.doakan Milhan !!~ (aku : ye.baekkkk..study! kurang kan girlfrens tu.*NO WOMEN NO CRY lah weyh..) *i mean,buat age dia lah form 2.guess u guys know..siapalah lelaki tanpa wanita di sisi..yup.!

pesanan tasha (my lil sis) : ... ... .. ... (aku : kau ta nak pesan apa apa ke?? suka hatilahh.belajarlah rajin rajin)
pesanan lisa (my lil sis) : Kak Ila nak pergy mana?? (aku:oh nak pergi jauh nih.nnty jumpa Lisa masa Raya tahu .~) Lisa : oh Kak Ila nak pergy KL ke?? (aku : haish.budak nih ta tahu ke aku nak pergy egypt?? Kak Ila nak pergy negara orang arab lah.Jauh kan...) Lisa : oh.ingat kan pergy KL.

HAHAHA..masing masing dengan cara diorang sying goodbye.but im going to tell u guys.the most touching part was,Lisa's part..
as she knew i was about to go abroad N OF COURSE NOT KUALA LUMPUR, she quickly hugged me and started crying.and kept asking 'nape kak Ila nak pergy negara orang Arab??'. my tears started to fall.just cant answer even a simple question from a 5 years old girl.No answer.just tears.

Glanced at my watch and yeah it was about time.
its not a very nice part but i believe in finding a positive side in everything,so the way i see it is,if i didnt have to leave them then i probably ta rasa anything coz duhh mungkin KL is too near so i would might couldnt be bother to call or interact wth them at all.
And to make sure that my parents always cool in eveything i do (i mean EVERYTHING yang merisaukan diorang ) is always a part of my doa.hmm..thats why iwas offered the job of going to Egypt TO STUDY and not to UK AUS US or sumwhere else.haha yelah nnty leka !~
So it is clear in my mind.I know what i have to do next-i need to do what i was sent here.STUDY.n a bit of shopping?? XP

tasha and lisa

Hope with my newly open eyes and heart,i see what i've been missing all along..just wait im coming back!
ps : ta de pic.ta sempat lah nak ambil pic time sedih tu..

''I'll Be There ..'' - beloved Michael Jackson

BELLO